Hitting Reset

So, I had to hit the reset button on life. It wasn’t a hard reboot, but it took a while for me to come back online. I guess I teetered too close to the edge of empty for too long. In the interim, I watched movies, read books, and tried to remember that I need to put words on paper (or screen), not just let them float in my head. Case in point: when I don’t write, my dreams go cuckoos. One of my dreams was about having to take care of demon (or maybe alien) quintuplets who had to be kept in a hole. It was awful. Why were those babies kept in a hole? I’d go and put my hands down the hole and they’d nuzzle my hands and arms and look up at me with their huge eyes. But I was under strict orders to keep them down there, even when they tried to climb up my arms, I’d have to push them back down. At one point, the house where I was taking care of said demons-kept-in-a-hole babies started to slide down into the ground, at which point Satan came out of my bedroom wearing one of my dresses and I kept screaming, “Fuck you, Satan!” at him until he righted the house and left us alone. I woke myself up after that because really, once you’ve yelled “Fuck you, Satan!” too many times, there’s just no restful sleeping after that. Needless to say, I’m getting back to writing so that I won’t have to take care of demon babies in a hole again. That was really messed up, even by my brain’s standards.

So, traditionally, January and February are my least favourite months. I don’t have a problem with winter or snow, but I do find myself affected by SAD when there’s no sun for weeks on end. Not to mention that the majority of bad things have happened to my family and friends in these two months, and 2017 has been no exception. The number of people telling me about deaths, illnesses, and other bad news in the past few weeks is crippling (and part of the reason I was on hiatus in order to deal with it all). But instead of wallowing in it, I’m trying to take it all and put it into my writing. I wrote two book reviews today, which I’m very happy to have done since it’s not something I’ve done before. They won’t be featured on this blog, although in the near future I will be featuring some reviews on this site, mostly books about writing and/or business. Also in the near future (hoping this week!), I’ll be launching a book review site just for the sexy books I read. I figure it’s good practice to keep my writing skills up, and it may help authors sell more books, so why not? I’ll post details here once I have them.

Well, it’s late and I need to work tomorrow (did I mention my part-time contract has been extended? At least there’s one thing working in my favour!), so I’m going to sign off. I won’t be including my scribbling word counts from the last couple of weeks since I have no idea how many words I’ve scribbled in notebooks. But I’m happy to be back at this, looking forward to getting back to my daily word counting with you.

WordacCountability Tally February 12:

Fiction: 0
Short Stories: 0
Nonfiction: 1,268
Blogging: 591
Total: 1,859
Grand Total: 13,847

Kicking Me In The Dreamspace

Well, what do you know? Giving myself permission not to write anything outside of blog posts this month, but also telling myself to at least try writing when I woke up (thank goodness for the later-starting shift this morning!) actually worked! I wrote about 200 words of description for a gay erotic romance story, something I’d promised a friend months ago but hadn’t any inspiration until I woke up with two characters in mind. At first I just laughed at how silly the characters were portrayed, but then I realized my muse was kicking me in the dreamspace and I got to writing all beautiful 190 words that will help me back to that dreamspace when I have more time to concentrate on Sunday. Yay! And that seemed to kickstart my muse since she gave me another idea while on transit towards work. Figures it was a crazy busy day where even my breaks were dealing with fallout from the rest of the day, so no time to concentrate on creative things other than swears in my head about customers. But, I digress.  I wrote 190 words describing a story that I’m picturing perfectly in my head! And I think it’ll be a much longer story than my usual stories, so big YAY!

And now, sleep, since tomorrow is another long workday. Really can’t wait until I work normal hours. Or something.

WordacCountability Tally Jan. 13:

Fiction: 190
Short Stories: 0
Nonfiction: 0
Blogging: 255
Total: 445
Grand Total: 5,758